this very sad busy dead and love week

uh uh i know... i supposed to write this post this morning but my mom taken this notebook to check her facebook. lol huh? -, -

this very sad week... okay, first thing is, i wanna say "Goodbye to my eldest cousin" she has already gone forever. i think she deserves heaven... :) i love you, kak Diny
I dunno why did i cry a lot the day she was gone. perhaps, i couldn't say goodbye and apologize before. hmmm...hope she deserves the best from Allah SWT

"Ya Allah, berikan ketabahan bagi keluarga yang ditinggalkan dan berikan yang terbaik untuk kak Diny. Amin"

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This very dead and love week...
Why love? and Why dead?
love is for my cinta-monyet waktu sd and dead is also for my cinta monyet waktu sd.
hm, gue rasa ini patut di bilang cerita cinta dalam sebuah keluarga... Nah lho!
let me explain this one, i have a cousin (the one i told at 'this very sad week') and she has a husband (kak Dodi) and her husband has a brother. His brother is Odi, and i had a crush on him when i was at 5th grade! That is so Konyooooool! And I met him again at Monday, 15th March 2009 at Rumah duka hmm
Gue sendiri juga gak tahu kenapa bisa clbk begini dangdingdung? Yang jelas waktu dalam masa masa berduka gue belum ngerasain apa-apa selain bilang, "ih odi kok sekarang lebih tinggi dari gua ya? kan dulu dia lebih pendek" yaaaaa, terus besoknya I deadly in love with him! tapi the problems are too many. pertama, meskipun we have no same blood tetep aja gue ama dia judulnya Sodara. Kedua, dia hmm anak hmm smk, hmm jadi yaaa hmm you know hmmm kan SMA nti STM ngekngok. Ketiga, I swear my other gilrs would say, "Bul, kok hmm rada yala yaa?" (except Raraa, dia malah bilang, "bul namanya juga udah suka dan clbk. anything can happen. and you shouldn't care with other people would say, as long as you love him.") Yeah i'm perfectly in love... but, those problems are spinning around in my head! I can't over it. So fool...
so I decided to Over him and gak lagi nerima pdkt-an nya dia. Eh setelah gue membuat deklarasi seperti itu si cowok (odi) malah ngsms gue huaaaaaaaaaaaah it's hard babyyyyyyyyyyyy

Hm tapi klo gue pikir i can have a crush on him but i can't have him. then i'll say to him...
"Sorry if i've said that i'm in love with you... But we can't stick together. because we're not belong together, odi"
yeah if i told him those words maybe i would relieve yeah, relieve :)




But my last question is, siapa yg gue gebet berikutnya?