i feel nothing

udah lama ya gue gak nulis blog hmm, kangen juga.

ohya gue gak pernah cerita ttg kelas XI IPS 3 gue ya??? yaaa, akan gue ceritakan sebagian hehehe. :p i found a lot of similarities with some of them, I hope Rara feels the way i feel juga deh haha abisnya belakangan ini gue agak lagi bad mood dia jadi kebawa gituuuu maaf ya Rara sayaaaaaang :) wekekekek

tapi kayanya lagi males nyeritain keadaan kelas -_-

Actually, i'm feeling there's a big unspoken anger in my deepest heart. I don't know what and why it is inside me. lately, i don't want someone bothering me while i'm making my own time even it's my my chairmate looking for something she missed. No, i'm not in a bad mood or else. I just feel nothing. Feel empty. Feel bruised. Feel so damn under pressured. i wanna cry but i can't, i wanna feel happy but i have nothing to be happy for.

And the result for all the feelings i feel, gue jadi ngomong ngelantur kemana-mana gak jelas arah dan tujuannya, kadang lupa apa yang mau diomongin, ulangan jadi nge-blank, jadi tambah suka bengong. (Jangan-jangan gue jadi gila lagi hmm) Tapi gue mau ngubah itu semua, gue mau konsen lagi mau semangat lagi mau gila dan bercek-cok lagi. Gue gak mau jalanin hari gue dengan lesu dan tanpa semangat. Padahal, baru kemaren gue ngerasain semangat gue balik dengan sendirinya, kaya joget2 sambil dengerin lagu eh hari ini tiba-tiba drop to the lowest day in my week. hahaha

Gue mau berusaha buat tetep semangaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!

Ganbatte! I wanna be Bold hahahaha